dramoth's Diaryland Diary Yet one more example why loving anything is pointless. If you hadn't figured it out by now, yeah that is pretty much the logic behind all my fucked up ness. Maybe I'm unnatural that I consider animals, helpless and subject to the whims of human beings, to be less than children, and as deserving of protection as our own offspring. I mean, I'm the one that doesn't believe anyone should have a child if they're not prepared for it, to give it everything it needs. And I feel the same way about animals. If you're just going to toss an animal away like some commodity, completely forgetting that it is a living being and is capable of having just as many fucked up issues as humans can have, then don't get a damn animal as a pet. Want to know what sparked getting rid of the cat? Two of our previous cats ended up with urinary infections. And those cats ended up spraying/peeing (being male) all over the house. So our new kitten the other night, after the new kitchen floor was put in (for its durability), peed in the middle of the kitchen. One time. And she's gone. No second chances. The stray thought went through someone's mind that the door to the room with her cat litter was closed, but without any evidence that was ignored. No one raised the possibility that the floor hadn't been washed yet, so if any cat or critter at any time during the floor tile's lifespan was smeared with some critter-body-fluid, the cat would react to it. No questions about what caused it, no concern over if she needs help we her owners could get her, none whatsoever. So I had told K I would find a no-kill shelter, and drive her to it, wherever it would be, and K was okay with that. But I get home from school and the kitten is gone. This fucking sucks. I hate crying. It's so freaking weak and embodies the whole idea of being powerless. Which I fucking am on so many fucking fronts it's unbelievable. Odd, isn't it? I'm the one that was most vocal against getting the damn cat because I knew something like this would happen. I just hope I don't forget. I don't want to forgive my parents for this stupidity. Maybe with this record I'll be able to keep the memory alive, because after 18 years I got real good at developing a selective memory Here's to Spaz. I hope a nice person takes her home. i emailed the cat info to my wife. Hopefully we can help. ~~nEo ------------------------------- Rowan - 2004-11-08 22:40:38 That sucks. I personally don't feel crying is weak- I think that not showing emotions when there is need to is probably weaker. Whether you were crying from anger or sadness, I think both emotions are markers- indicators that something is wrong. I really wish you would get out of that environment. I think it isn't healthy. ------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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